I swear sometimes I lose (either by not winning enough, or actually losing) by not playing in the right game.  I'm not talking about table selection, but game selection.  I've really started to reflect on different thoughts and actions of the past, I don't think it's as severe as bi-polar but I haven't had my head checked so I'm not sure.  Today I was well rested, fed proper, calm, and increasingly pensive.  I busted before the cash in today's (Live $65) tournament but then went on to do very well at 4/8 hold 'em.  I was +$140 in about two hours time, I was running good but there was more to it, I was really able to control the pot, not get invested on certain hands and made several correct folds - I know for sure they were correct, as most of the hands went to showdown - this is limit poker after all.  After figuring my tournament loss, a "sammich" and the short limit session, I ended up +$65 or so for the day, I know, nothing to brag about, but I'll take it.

Anyway, back to the meat of the stew.  The above person, absolutly loves limit hold 'em, PL or Limit Omaha Hi/Lo, Stud 8/b, Gin, and Razz; is very withdrawn, sometimes depressed, and always deep in thought.  The other half, that really makes the Chilly cold is when I'm sleep deprived, starved for 2 days and not hungry for food, but action - addicted to the head rush of dragging a huge pot.  This is the man that wants to play far beyond his bankroll, and how I'd manage to turn a losing day around by raising the stakes, or go home broke.  Should someone with $1300 to his name play 5/10 NLHE? that depends on which one you ask. 

My Mr.Hyde thinks limit games are pretty boring, and would rather play 2/5 N/L or Blackjack for the immediate response.  He also loves PLO, and if the game gets short handed, He wants to add cards.  Jekyll is shy around pretty girls, Mr. Hyde is more adept at conversation and likely to add "You feel like getting a room?"  So obviously there is a problem, if the wrong "half" of me plays in a certain game, or switches over in the middle of a session, I'm a donkey.  Am I alone on this one or do others out there feel different sometimes for no apparent reason?  If yes, then do you have tips on emotion control, like if I was able to like manually switch between the two, for a HORSE or 7/8-game situation.

As a side note and possible caption for the picture, I am 25 days sober and probably never drinking again.