rough  (rf)adj. rough·er, rough·est

1. Having a surface marked by irregularities, protuberances, or ridges; not smooth. 
2. Coarse or shaggy to the touch: a rough scratchy blanket. 
3.
a. Difficult to travel over or through: the rough terrain of the highlands. 
b. Characterized by violent motion; turbulent: rough waters. 
c. Difficult to endure or live through, especially because of harsh or inclement weather: a rough winter. 
d. Unpleasant or difficult: had a rough time during the exam.
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There isn't much poker going on anymore.  The "real" job is in full force, that is six days a week, ten hours a day.  I absolutly hate it and myself most of the time.  It just doesn't seem worth it to drive to the casino and maybe get a 3-4 hour session in after ten hours of doing alignments, brakes, and front ends and then go to sleep before the next ten hours of turning wrenches.  So I popped $500 on FT mostly to feed the part of my brain that enjoys poker, online hold em is dead: anymore it's HEM vs. HEM, So I'm either playing 3 tables of six max PLO or ten game or horse.  I'm down a bit (about $100) but that's probably because I'll get a wild hair and jump into a $30 MTT.
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To rub salt in the wound, the one day I have off (sunday) has been ruined by my father.  He absolutly hates all form of gambling, and insists on being "close" that is if I don't call, he'll call. If I don't visit, he'll visit.  There has been a couple of times after a frequent arguement I'd go to the casino with something to prove.  I'd either walk away a hero or lose 1-2k in a few hours.  He's good with the guilt as well, Crohn's disease, sans a few organs, and more than a few cancer scares since his lung was taken out .  Fortunatly or not the only thing I inherited was the depression.  I think sometimes it's good to just feel like shit for no reason, It really helps me feel grounded and detached, and mentally erases the value of almost everything.