Tuesday was the last day I played and looks like the next flop I'll be seeing will be in January at the Bahamas. I have played way too much this year, I've tried to win the money back after my huge downswings in the spring, had a lot of pressure because of that which made me play too many hours. But now I give up, it's time for a break.

Actually I made some kind of comeback, I'm quite satisfied with the results on the other sites than FTP. Like I said before I've found some good NL games, and they have been going well. I feel like my game is in excellent shape, so I'm not worried at all even tho I lost a lot of money at FTP this year. But that's poker. I was down last year too, as late as October/November and I thought I'm very happy if I break even at FTP, but I made such a miracle comeback I actually ended up winning a lot last year (from FTP). But no miracles this year, FTP didn't give up at all, I Just couldn't win there. I won the last few months at all the other  sites (well not pokerstars, but didn't play there that much) but couldn't make it turn around at FTP. I know what you all thinking: I played PLO at FTP and that's why I lost. But I won a lot from PLO at all the other sites I played.

I'm not whining about nothing when I talk about bad run, I went thru all the hand history and I can tell exactly where I lost. First time I went thru all the hands was a few months ago and I was actually relieved with the results. I was winning from 25/50, 50/100 and 100/200 PLO and losing massively at 200/400, 300/600 and especially at 500/1000. I'm not surprised I lost at the highest stakes, because I started omaha in the first place from 200/400 and obviously I was very bad in the beginning. I kept playing too much with the best players. I was winning from NL on the side, so I didn't even realize how much I lost to PLO.

I had a really bad two or three months when I lost maybe 2-3 millions, playing 500-1000 HA running really bad and playing against some people I prolly shouldn't play against. After that I haven't even lost much, so almost all the losses of this year are from this short period.

The funniest part is the EV-graphs. I was winning more from 25/50 to 100/200 than I was supposed to. And losing WAY more than what I was supposed to at the highest stakes. The unluckiest of all stakes was 500/1000 where I lost like 2-3 millions more than what I was supposed to. Of course I inevitably think of the situation if all this would be the other way. If I would've been unlucky at the smaller stakes and winning more (losing less) at the highest stakes than I was supposed to. Of course this is useless, there is nothing to do about it.

Two days ago I looked at the rest of the hands (the last 3 months or so). I was playing mostly 25/50 and 50/100, and I was supposed to break even but I lost about 450k. The graphs were pretty sad, I was suppose to be pretty much even all the time, that graphs showing how I should've done calculating the EV after each time the money went in was almost a straight line, but the graph showing how I actually did went steadily downhill all the way, it look like I didn't have any luck even one day or even a couple of big pots. It's pretty sick how long the long run actually is. One can run good or bad for at least a year, good example is some player who made millions in plo in six months or so and lose everything later and never make it to the same stakes again.

I should've taken a break from FTP a long time ago, since I was doing good elsewhere and always losing at this one site, but it came like an obsession to me - I just had to win there. Well, that didn't happen this year, maybe it all looks different next year after the break and everything.

Obviously if money is the only goal, I should've just played where I won and not waste my time in PLO anywhere, since no matter how I run I still make more money from holdem because I'm still way better at it then PLO. But the money isn't the only goal for me, I want to become a better player and keep challenging myself. PLO is still a big challenge for me, and it's the main game at highstakes already (also in Vegas, people find holdem too boring), that's the biggest reason why I keep playing it and want to become really good at it.

So I'm not going to give up, I'm already so much better in PLo than let's say a year ago. At least I should be a winning player up to 100/200, but of course I still have a lot to learn. And it'sabout time to become good in all the other games too, so I have to practice more all the games next
year.

So overall I had a pretty shitty year in poker, but that's ok. I'm not too disappointed, it's part of the game and it gives a good perspective to everything. You can't learn without ever doing mistakes, going thru all the played hands and results was a real eye-opener and hopefully I'm much smarter about table selection and everything next year.

Like I mentioned I'm going to Bahamas in the beginning of January like the last two years. It's to be great again, I  really love the venue, always had such a great time there.