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This year holidays are living hell for me. All started at this party at work for end of year. Like i said, i got prety wasted but prety much
all where. We are small company, 20 people and we only have 4 girls. When i am drunk i just must flirt. So i just for fun started flirting with one of my
coworkers. Below average looking, but doable if horny and drunk, mostly because of her big boobs. I ended fucking her in her car. Not once, but twice.
Oh, did i mention that my girlfriend drove me to this party, because i know i would be drunk and didnt wanted to drive. Ffs, my girlfriend drove me to fuck another girl. Ofcourse, next day i had this huge moral hangover. I was so pissed on myself. So i got drunk next day and next day and next day. Just couldnt look into my girlfriend eyes sober. I even came drunk home to my family on christmas eve. And when my father saw me drunk we got into this huge conflict. Yea, yea, merry christmas and fuck off.
At work i maybe saw this girl once a week or maybe once every two weeks, but now we just kept coming acros, me trying to avoid her and she trying to meet me.
Not disturbing, but you can tell something had changed.

I got wasted on new year's eve also and ruin my girlfriend evening. God job me. Anyway, i decided i will break up with her
because no women deserve this. So i am pretty much pissed for 2 weeks now just because i fucked my co-worker. Ok, i cheated her once with some whore in night club and it didnt disturb me, so i just dont know what changed this time, because i really have very bad conscience. Fuck it.

Oh, but on other hand, poker did very good for me, BECAUSE I DIDNT PLAY ANY!

I just wish to drop dead.

I went to the movies on sunday to watch Avatar. My girlfriend wanted to go and i really didnt had any choice, becuase i was dead drunk on saturday and she was a little pissed off. Not sure if because i was drunk or becuase i didnt take her with me so we both would get drunk. Anyway i didnt liked it. This romantic movies are not for me. But my girlfriend liked it and so all other people in cinema. I was getting so bored and didnt really devote any attention when suddenly people started to crying because some cartoon dude in movie died. I was just, wtf. Here we are watching this cartoon and grown up people around me are crying.
Jesus. I never saw crying someone when we watched some western movie and there a bunch of cowboys killed indians just becuase they lived there (i mean this is all about in Avatar). Or some movies about nazis crimes like Schindler's List, where they killed a few milions childs and women. I mean, this were all movies about real events and nobody cried, but  watching some sci-fi cartoon and everybody cries. Sometimes i really wonder where these society goes. Ah, forget it, i am just in bad mood becuase now are all over tv and radio these charity events for those who are having really rough times and dont have even money for food, so they can call and on these events people would try to raise some money so they can spent merry christmas and even gave their kids some presents. It just make me so sad what stories you hear and see. So i donated 100 eur which is at the moment alot for me, becuase i only have 250€ left until 10th january. Fucked it, i just hope some kid would get a nice toy for this.

Ok, first poker. Its still sucks, i just cant get nothing going. My 70:30 wont held up and cooler after cooler. Sometimes i really wonder if some sites are rigged, specially in tournaments where bigger stack always seems to win. Played yesterday some toruney, 10 away from money, i was little bit over average and i got AA. The guy who has me covered raise utg and i go all in. He insta calls and turns over KK. Flop is AKx, and river last K. Then played 20k GTD, also doing well. This agro guy on my table has double my stack and raises every time he is on button and i am big blind. I get KQs in BB in again he raises 5 BB. I know when he raises 5BB he is weak and when he was raising 3 BB he had strong cards. I go all in and he calls with A4o. Flop K44. Fuck me.
Ok i was on saturday on this erotic fair. It was awesome. I was prety drunk but not too much. Every erotic shop had own dancers there and one was really so beatiful.
Blonde hair, perfect tits, long legs. There werent allowed any cameras, but we managed to made some pictures with ours cell phones. I would upload some pictures, but i cant find my fucking usb cord for cell phone. Also slowenian playboy had its own stand there and you could get some pictures with the girls with their official photographer and of course you had to pay for it. Fucked it, i rather spend my money on beer. The main program was a show from Angel Dark. She looked awesome. She picked some guy from audience, put a strap on on him and then she 20 minuset ride that strap on dildo. Amazing.

I didnt played almost no poker past weekend in this week. I have been only drunk once in last 8 days. At work is just insane. When some of my coworkers return to work, someone else get sick and i had to work 10+ hours per day. But it is not so bad, yesterday my boss send me an email that i will get 1100 eur christmas bonus. I wish i could use this money for poker, but i owe 1300 eur to my friends. So now at least i have my whole paycheck, so i could buy my family and girlfriend some nice christmas gifts. I just love christmas and the whole spirit that comes with it. On christmas every year i go home for 2-3 days and spend time with my family. Its so relaxing and i really enjoy it.
Tommorow i will go to this erotic fair (here is link: http://www.erotika69.si/). Its like Venus in Berlin only much smaller. This years guest will be Angel Dark and Tarra White. Must say i never heard about them two, but then again i really dont know many pornstars. It starts at 5.pm, so i hope i wont be tu much wasted until then and i will remember somethink i saw so i could update here :). Maybe even some pictures of our slovenian porn actress :). Not sure if we got any, lol.

Lately i just cant get nothing going. After making some money past 2 months on poker and spend it all on partys i again found myself in debts, about 800 eur. It fucking sucks. My paycheck wont arriwe until next friday, so at the moment i dont have money for bills or rent.
I was hoping to sell one of mine building plots i got from my parents, but the buyer, after we had all worked out, change his mind last minute.
Yesterday i found out, i had about 1,5$ on stars. I run that up to 45$, but i lost it this morning, lol. Dont even want to get into details but it were some sick beats. I just wish i had a few thousands on my bank account, so i can play poker more relaxed and with some brm. But i always need some money fast (who doesnt lol), so i just run what i have up to few hundreds, then withdraw most of it, and continue playing with one buy in. That worked very well this year for me, because i am up at least 3000+ eur. Which is quite alot considering i always started playing with 1 or 2 buy-ins at NL50 or NL100.
Anyway i am off to calling my friends, if someone has 500€ i can borrow until next friday, lol. I need to pay some bills and rent and hopefully i will have a 100 left for this weekend so i can get drunk.

I was really hoping to get some this weekend, but when my girlfriend came, she told me it was those days in month again. I thought to myself, ok, at least she is not pregnant, lol.
But i didnt know, when she get those days, she has such a huge mood swings. And i had to spend the whole weekend with her. She even didnt want to give me a blowjob. On sunday i was really afraid of here, because one minute she was all soft and next minute like some dictator and every time she looked at me, i was afraid because i didnt know in what mood she was. I was so tilt, but didnt want to say anything, because the last thing i needed was a conflict. I dont know when i was so glad that it was monday to get to work. So the whole weekend i was at home, watching desperate housewifes with her and trying to figure out all kind of different ways to kill myself, lol. When a friend called me on saturday evening, if i am into mood for some beer, i didnt need to ask nothing, i just looked at her, and when i saw that killing look in her eyes, i just said to him, i have no time and went back watching that fucking housewifes show.
But like i said, it were swings, so it was good too, when she was in good mood, she was all the time kissing and cuddling me, cooking, cleaning my place, which is far from easy, lol. So thats pretty much how my weekend was, but at least after very long time i was sober the whole weekend. I am 100% that is going to change this weekend, lol.

Pretty boring week. My co-worker got this new flu so i had to do also his work, so that means working 10+ hours every day. Didnt had a drop of alcohol the whole week, so i am woried i might get sick. You see i have this saying: What lives in water, dies in spirit. And being drunk so much, i just cant get any bacteria :)). But i will try to stay away for too much drinking this weekend. Dont have any plans so i will probably say my girl to come over and be at my place the whole weekend. I hope she will be in mood for some sexy lingerie and fishnets stockings, which turns me so on.

Ok, now some seriuos poker question. I played alot yesterday and turned 30$ on Full tilt into 250$ playing NL100. I am so good with brm :). Then i lost 100 and went with my 150$ on NL200. My brm is just getting better and better. Then this hand happen and i am really interested in some good answers.

I have 155$ and i am im middle position. I get QQ. This donk, who just donked away 3/4 of his stack, push all in utg for 55$. I smooth call but then big blind pushes all in for 200$. I still have 100$ left and this push only means, he has AK. I call. Donk with 55$ has KJo, and big blind has AK. Flop is KJX and i am busto. Is this correct play or should i fold after BB pushes. I dont think i cant get away from my QQ in this spot or can i?

Hi everybody. The weekend was prety much how i know it will be. I was coma drunk, both on saturday and sunday. At least i was not  alone, also 2 of my best friends were with me. We all had intention to drink just to be a little drunk. But when you get there, you dont care anymore and you drink more. And after that, you dont remember anymore, how much you drinked.
I was also again 1 hour late for work on monday, because i could hardly walked. I am still sick from all  this drinking and in these moments i swear i would stop drinking but when the weekend is here, i just know what would happen. Nothing i can do i guess, lol.
I also thinked about, how it would be the easiest way to go in South Africa next year. So i done some calculations and i came up, that i would need 3000$. Its still 190 days left, so i need 15$ per day. I deposited 50$ in started playing nl25. I quit in this account immediately when i have 15$ profit. I only played 2 days and i am at 90$. I will use this account only for this and others accounts for old fashion gambling, lol.
Some time ago i also got an offer to start writing a blog on their site and they would pay me, nothing big, but hey, dolar here, dolar there. I was not interested then, but now when i have this South Africa project i would give it a second thought.
I also watched some high stakes action on Full tilt. I mean, these guys are sick. 1 mil+ pots, all the time half mil in pots. Just unbelivable, but i can understand them, if i would have such a bankroll i would do the same, lol.
Champions league is back and i have 25 eur in my pocket, so i will put them into good use, lol.

Hi fuckers and bitches, guess who is back, lol. I decided to start writing again because i am in really good mod. And thats for only one reason, Slovenia will play in world cup next year in South Africa. Fucking awesome. I was on all home games we played in qualifiers including this one against Russia, where we won 1:0. I was also in Bratislava previous month where we won against Slovakia 2:0. We really have great team, we dont have superstars, at least for world, but they are all superstars for us. They played with passion, unity and pride for Slovenian shirt and i am really proud. So i guess next mission is to go in South Africa next year. I dont know how yet, but i will think somethink up next few days how to raise some money, because i have been drunk since match ended on wednesday. Nothing new, lol.
Also played alot of poker since my last post, and won quite alot of money, around 1500 EUR, but i spended all on girls and partys, so i am
at the moment busto again. I was winning so much, that i also staked 2 my friends for 150$ each, and now i am waiting to get this back, so i can start playing again.
I am also still with that girl and things are quite good, but knowing me, that can change very soon. I just hope it wont this time.
So i guess thats all for now, weekend is here again and hopefully i will have another report how its been on monday, that of course if i will remember anything, lol.
For tomorow is sure i will be drunk, because one of my friends have a party, because he became a father this week. He has a baby girl. Fucking good reason to have a party, dont you thing, LOL.

After my recent posts or i think all my post i got a lot off negative feedback and it hurt me alot - not, lol. But anyway, that made me realize that people want to read about successful people, not a faliure. I just write how my life is now and its been like this past few years when i graduate from faculty and got a job and move on my own. Ffs, how could this be bragging when i write how i am broke and drunk most off the time. Its fucking humiliating and it doesnt feel good either. But i always try to take on things positive, so maybe thats why my posts are understood in wrong way.