What a weekend again. I am still fucked up from friday and saturday drinking session. Yesterday i couldnt get up from bed and now it is really time for 2 weeks pause from alcohol.
So i went to that anniversary on friday and it was pretty much how i already wrote that would be. Everyone i talk with has perfect life and when somebody ask me, i told them that i have shit job, i am degenerate gambler, drunk at least twice a week and i live from day too day. And the person i was talking with just turn around and did avoid me the whole evening. I was bored, so i decided to get out of the room we were in and go to bar. There was young, very beatiful girl and an older bartender who was serving us in that room. I started ordering drinks for me and them two. We all drink their home made bilberry brandy. The shit was very good, but also very strong. Both off them where very cool and after a while the girl joined me on my side of the bar. She was really hot. We all laughed and now i was really having a good time. Then one of my ex class mates came and said that i should come in, because we will make a group photo. He also asked that bartender if he could take the photo. I went in and i stood in the back. I put my arm around my class mate, who stood next to me and put my middle finder up, so nobody couldnt see. That bartender who was behind camera, notice it, he look at me, but just smile and took the photo. I cant wait to see that photo. I wish i could see some expression on some faces when they will see that photo. When i came back to the bar, that bartender already told that girl, what i did, and she laughed so much, that she had tears in her eyes. It got pretty late and some of my class mates started to leaving, so i deicided to go also. I was pretty drunk at this point and i also got an 1 hour drive to home. I said good bye and when i was leaving that girl from bar came after me and gave me her phone number. She said she never havent laughed soo much and then she gave me a quick kiss. I was really surprised because the whole night i was watching what i said, because i didnt want her to thing: "Great, another drunk customer, who wants to fuck me". I mean, off course i want her, but the way she behave, also really smart, i didnt bother to make a move. So i guess, she did.
Next day, when i woke up around 11 am, i got a sms, from one of my friends, who is part-time junkie lol. He is home alone and there will be some live microstakes poker and i should come. I was still half drunk from that brandy and i went there. I dont want to get into details, but alot of drugs and alcohol. My nose still hurts from all this shit i put into it. Dont remember how i got home but i was really happy on sunday that i woke up in my bed.
I played online only on sunday a little and made around 100$. 20 days to go and i am on 58% claering that bonus. I am falling behind so i really need to put some hours into it.

I also send yesterday that girl a sms, she wrote me back, that she is working and i should come around. But i had to pass, because i was really fucked up, i still am and that i will call her today. I am going on a run today and i plan to run every day this week and i really mean no alcohol.