hola coinflippeeeerrrrssssss,

ur man alex aka "zauc3" aint doing so well in the past 3 to 4 months. I've been in a real downer as a lot of things are going in my life including my job so sitting on the poker table is kinda like my stress relief but then that's not enough for me as I'm just doing horrible. I know a lot of people just rather want to read about something positive but keeping it bottled up is not working out so well lol...

Life wise, life is just a little crappy as my tech school gpa dropped from a 3.7 to a 2.9 in just two semesters. I am attending my classes but I guess when it comes down to homework and projects, I just rather take a bad beat online back to back lol =P but I always do then but extremely half ass. I do my quizzes and exams well and that's what's really keeping me in shape to pass.

Poker wise, I guess I'm making a lot of mistakes online and live. Number one mistake online is that I don't pay much attention because i enjoy multitasking to other things when I'm not in hand. The other mistake is that I need to practice myself from handling bad beats or just tilting. I have read articles and books about just forgetting about it and clearing my mind to the next hand....but guess what!?...the same fucking idiot is still on my table and that really stresses me out because revenge stays on my mind and I know I can't follow that.

Work wise, I hate my job...period. I can't get a job anywhere and I got stuck with a bussing position working $4/hr plus tips and it's really depressing. My paychecks is something to spit on while I mostly survive by my tips to pay for gas daily. I just got paid 140 last wed and I'm only left with 29 for the next to weeks but not including tips which is like 15 a day....that's why my poker experience and skills can't really exceed in such fashion when I'm too worried about how much to put in or if I should even play! Most of my time, I am just studying and starring at videos on end for hours! The game is my passion but I just can't get the oppurtunity to play without worrying about anything. I'm really starting to run out of options. This whole year was a bad downswing and I'm really looking for 2011 to smell some fresh air.

 

ps-I just took second on a sit n go fixed mix game while I was writing this lol =P