As my second blog about what's going through with me, I feel like I have evolved a lot through poker and essentially used that through life. Sounds kinda funny sometimes but whenever I have to say "two"...well haha, you guessed it, I would say duece! I remember when I had this huge project for school concerning law and court and I was in the defendant side. I was practiacally trying to protect this man and somehow show the judge that tons of his rights were violated *4th,5th,6th* and there was this one part where I had a had nice fight and before I sat down, I said out loud, "I had the nuts on this one!!" lol...the other side had a wierd look after that one. Poker is always on my mind and most def. everywhere I go. I collect ALL IN magz, WPT magz, as well as BLUFF magz and I always have one on me so I can read it when I can whenever I'm out. I went to school to be a poker dealing and I graduated around july, but I have not been able to get anything from anyone....I feel like I might have to start applying out of state to possibly get something. I feel like if I do get a poker dealing job in some type of casino, my poker career would really start in a great path as now I am completely surrounded by it. Phil Ivey's advice in becoming such a great poker player is to always work on your game and put a lot of hours in it. He once said in a interview that he would always think of poker, even when he's in the shower, he would just think of the game. I would have dreams of winning a major tournament and it would feel so great....then pissed off when I wake. I also recently got some crap job at a Cuban restaurant as a busboy just the other day. I would just stick to this job and use portions of the money to double up my paychecks through some cash games at the casinos haha =P the past couple of months I would not sleep and I'll just watch hours and hours of poker videos. I would just sit back and study games. The enjoyment of just watching a poker video is just as good! The relationship is still good as we both are trying hard to get somewhere in life and escaping from reality to play countless hours of poker.

 

As life goes....what can I say? Life is "ok". I feel like I can do better. Much better. I feel like I fucked up real bad in the past to be in such a messed up position at the moment (that's me calling a raise out of position, lmao!). Life has been kind to me by giving a lot of chances to keep standing and not giving up. I really been through a lot. Homeless, abused, emotionally abused, neglected, and even arrested a couple of times....but I don't think I regret any of that stuff. Why? Because I know what pain and loss really feels like. A lot of people complain about life in front of me, I just wish they knew how hard it was for me to get up from two broken legs in life to even have a car, a home, and a school. I just hope that everything I've been through, would eventually look back at me and smile. As for now, I am in the position where I must learn how to call c-bets and not be scared.